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Hey There Lonely Girl

I imagine you,

in your dim lit bedroom, crying alone,

just a moment before you go to sleep,

and I wish, I can be with you that time,

to wipe your tears and offer you my time.

 

Our universe collided when you were lost,

in a hopeless world, trying to find something,

in one hopeless moment, we found each other,

to trust and talk and maybe sing a few songs.

 

I wish I could move the clouds away from you,

and offer you bright sunshine that will last forever,

but you loved storms and snowfall on the rooftops,

and your love for madness ruined me forever.

 

Hey There Lonely Girl is a beautiful song by Eddie Holman.


Jane

It was the last night of that wicked March,

a month that only brought miseries for Jane.

Of broken relationships and evil crimes,

Jane had lost everything that she owned.

 

Jane was now afraid of the familiar darkness,

her life, unstable, her dreams, collapsed.

Yet, Jane found hope in a glass of wine,

and every little pieces of shattered bottle.

 

“The world is evil and bad” they said.

“But I’ll overcome the bad” Jane believed.

And here Jane was, waiting for the ship

that will take her anywhere but away from here.

 

Jane will not tell you of how we met, on this ship

and, I was asked to take an oath, to hide our story.

The land was far away and Jane was there by my side,

with her glass of Champagne and water all around us.

 

Jane is not sad anymore and Jane will not weep,

Jane will put darkest of her memories to sleep.

Our weekend getaway is just coming to an end,

“Let us sail the earth, just you and me” Jane said.


Nightwalker

Little drops of rain fell from the heaven on a strange cold midnight

Little creatures crawl near the damaged crops while working their magic

Its a strange night where the dead has risen from a long sleep

to repair the lives of their loved ones who still cling to their memories.

 

Here I am, holding a cigarette in temptation to smoke again

If only that way I can feel your nicotine dipped lips

There is a half empty bottle of whiskey in my Jacket and I want to drink it

to feel your whiskey tongue which knew me better than my mirror.

 

The lust when you smoked with me for the first time in that February cold

And you took a drag, waiting to feel the heat while we held each others hand.

Times when you only drank whiskey when you were lost and sad and angry

And yet we finished a half bottle of Jack, neat, naked, in that February cold.

 

<Metaphysics> You are running away from life, and I am running away from death

and slowly someday our paths will collide and we will meet again

in another universe, in some other dimension where there won’t be any logic

time will freeze, and we will smoke and finish that half bottle of jack </metaphysics>

 

I am dead and you are sad and whiskey is your only companion tonight.

The grave digger rings a bell, commanding the dead to return back to sleep

I gather your scattered thoughts and try to compose you into something coherent

I am staring at your naked body from the broken window while little creatures crawl.


New Year…

The air outside my window is cold and unchanged,
The scars on my heart are fresh and unaltered,
The people in this place are disappointing and same,
Everything around Me is same, I am still the same.
 
May be I am addicted to this constant pain,
The pain that makes me believe that I live in a real world,
Today I am sick of crying and tired of trying,
The feeling that makes me believe that I am dying everyday.
 
So today is a new year, an year which will promise laughter
and then will quickly slide into an ocean of sadness.
So today is a new year, an year which has 365 blank pages
and I only hope there are more pages of smile and happiness..
 

The Split

                                                  THE SPLIT TRILOGY
 
                                               PART 1: AND THEY SPLIT
                                                                 HE
His world was colliding while he chased her with saddened eyes
He knew he lost her love, but one desperate attempt to revive emotions
He called out her name and there she stood in still waiting for him to speak
And he out of all normal questions asked her “Where are you going”?
 
He saw her eyes moist with a trace of tear in her eyes and sadness in speech
She said that the place where she goes now entirely depends on him now
A minute of silence enveloped around them while he thought of possible answers
And then he saw her opening the door in sadness and departing from their home
 
Like a desperate child he came running to her for one final talk before they split
He heard only anger in her voice when she yelled back at him, “WHAT”?
In moment confusion he replied back with the obvious answer “You Know”
And he heard a reply he feared would signal the end of talk “No, I Don’t”
 
He slept alone that night in a house the two of them called their own
He opened his eyes unable to sleep and looked to her picture on his left
Million memories danced in front of him when he touched her framed picture
And in that moment of sadness he threw her picture away trying to forget her
 
He thought of those unwritten letters he should have written to make her smile
He slept that night where she came in his dream and they danced together again
He woke up next morning and he stared at the empty bed on his right
He was alone, sad and dejected with a regret of losing the only one he loved.
                                                                    **
                                                                 SHE  
She hurried through the steps in anger for she knew she was broken apart
She wanted to leave this house but she wished he would make one attempt 
She heard her name and turned around with hope that everything will be alright
And she heard the insane question anybody could ask, “Where are you going”?
 
She saw him breathing heavily as if he ran a thousand steps just to ask this
He stood there waiting for her answer to which she said “Its up to you”
A minute of silence enveloped around them while she waited for the answer
She began to walk away knowing this time for sure that she is not coming back.
 
She braved the winter cold walking hiding her tears only to control herself
She saw him hurriedly running towards her and she yelled in anger “WHAT”?
She waited again for him to speak anything at all  to which he said “You Know”
And the only possible answer she could have said only to ignore was “No, I Don’t”
 
She slept alone that night in her house long forsaken to move in with her love
She opened her eyes unable to sleep and looked to his picture on her right
Million emotions tried to capture her heart when she touched his frame picture
And in that moment of anger she threw his picture away trying to forget him.
 
 She thought innumerable sufferings her heart bore to make him happy
She slept that night where he came in her dream and they danced together again
She woke up next morning and she stared at the empty bed on her left
She was alone, sad and angry for she gave all her heart and lost.   
 
 
                                   PART 2: WHILE THEY SPLIT…
                                                                HE
The sun was high, waiting for my dream to end
A dreamland where words rest and memories play.
The dream was dark yet her image in it was bright
Glowing with the imagination of her dark sultry memories
 
Embedded deep into the darkest corner of my heart
was a memory beating hard and keeping me alive
Turning the burnt pages of my past was a present
which would strangely be my most haunting memory ever
 
Lets sail to the end of the sea O love for the last time
Holding hands, exchanging hugs and kissing wild
Lets burn the worldly desires in the earth so deep
and freeze in the coldness of the love that shattered it.
 
The Sun is high, the dream is empty and my sleep is over
lying in my room throughout that harsh month of loneliness
her fragrance is everywhere embedded deep into my soul
How I wish I erased an entire tale of those memories within me.
 
A month has gone and those two glass of wine lies in dust
A tale has finished and the memories of it can’t be deleted
She left me only to never return to the place we called our own
And I followed her on a solitary journey to the lands of unknown.
                                                                  ***
                                                                SHE
Lonely nights are often spent in company of memories
The time gone has welted my heart from red to grey
Unable to believe it was a lie when he said He’d love forever
Penitence Of broken promises that never should have been made
 
Those false words cuts more deeper than a knife would
It produces an ache so deep that you cant reach
Your love was like a sad song, which I will take to my grave
I am searching for peace, which is too hard to find.
 
The storm that’s unsettled blows sands of sorrow into my eye
With a desperate attempt to make me cry, I close my eyes
I now pray for the rain that would hide all traces of pain
And wait for this storm to pass to carry all memories along
 
I used to say cute words but now I weigh each of my word
This depression is a parasite, which eats away my consciousness
For how deep I bury myself, there is no cure by alcohol
I fill those silent places with music now and lit candles for company
 
A month has gone and now this heart is sync with the snow outside
A tale has ended and there is a little hope that I would live again
I still dreams of going to the place we called our own
And there is hope that I would see him again in the land of snow.
 
 
                                     PART 3: WHEN THEY MET
                                                                  HE
 Beating the cold winds from the snows of distant mountains
I visualised the sun peeping and shining on those peaks
And there will be warmth even when coldness stays there
I run to catch that final train where I’ll see her again
 
I know I have crossed the wrong bridges and wrong paths
And I have never been happy to be wrong in my life
For the times and troubles have taken us on a ride
Where our hearts were tired and exhausted to run again
 
Tears drop down as I stare at the blank pages of book
As here I was travelling to her home to win her back
She broke my heart but her love still fills my soul
Teaching me only to love again and never to break her.
 
Leafless pine trees are covered with a blanket of white snow
There’s a sparkle in my eye and a smile which I cannot hide
I raise my hands to knock on that door where you reside
As you open the door there is a silence mocking us both.
 
The storm in my mind is silent now when I see her after long time
I say to her “Lets forget the indifferences and become US again”
She still has that little tear in a corner of her eye while she nods
The bridge that he built is now burnt for she has crossed into her life
 
We embrace our love and as I ask her “Are you hurt”?
She replies with a smile “There’s nothing a kiss cant fix”
The touch of your lips is heaven, moment frozen in time forever
I am captured in your embrace, your eyes captures my soul.
 
 
                                                                 ***
                                                               SHE
Solitary has captured me, slaved me with chains of pain
Love in me is lost, like a sun in the middle of dark clouds
Today I wish that I can see him for one time, one last time
To make him understand that life is a pain without love.
 
The leaves have withered from trees, like happiness from my life
And yet I know they will blossom again, like love in my life
The coldness is cruel and so is the life for taking love away
And summers shall bring back life to the trees and I shall wait.
 
You should have come earlier, you should have come soon
What is stopping you to come running to me to win me back again
I am broken here, each part of my flesh waiting for your touch
This separation kills me and I know it was a mistake running away.
 
Today the sun is high and there is a warmness in the snow 
The valley is sparkling with happiness of the chirping birds
There’s a knock and I can only be sure that you it would be
And a stunning silence engulfs around me when I see you.
 
Pools of joy fills my eyes, tears stream as I welcomes him
He says “Lets forget the indifferences and become US again”
Like he has broken into my mind and stole the question
With a tear in the corner of my eye I frantically nods in happiness.
 
Just when I thought the love is gone he came again
As one last flimsy thread was drawn, hope has found its way back
Love that has eluded me more and more 
had alas flew back into my life yet again with happiness.
 

Hidden Beauty

The day started when I acknowledged my failed quest
of unlocking mysteries that answers my questions
There is a poetry hidden in every step of my path
Waiting to be walked on, waiting to be heard.
 
While the sun hides behind a layer of dark clouds
Storing those magical waters to give it back to this earth
There is a poetry hidden in those tiny drops of rain
Waiting to touch the soil, waiting to dance to the joy
 
The moon shines brightly yet the clouds cover its beauty
Only to reveal it for a quick time and again disappear
There is a poetry hidden in those large lapse of darkness
Waiting to be consumed, waiting to be walked with hope
 
The Sun rises again and yesterdays story is hidden untold
The quest is over but my journey is still incomplete
There is a poetry hidden in those melancholic tales of despair
Waiting for my struggle to end, waiting to be finally home.
 

Written for the day 2 challenge of OctPoWriMo 2013 . The theme of todays post was finding those unusual places where you find poetry. While I think its the simple things from nature that can inspire any heart to weave a poetry out of the words. Another day where I have been able to write for OctPoWriMo. I only hope I finish this month with 31 Posts. And until then Happy reading.